June June June

Imagine, seems like it just started and here we are facing July. Company and then a brief hiatus and then traveling and then.. whoosh.. Aug. Trying to enjoy the time when my girls are here. Before too long we will say what happened to the summer. Then a baby, another trip and whoosh again.

Cloudy days are good for cleaning and reorganizing. Cooking, sorting and throwing away. Gardening, grapeleaves, and writing. And now two exciting prospects.. cool.

And a book that I really do not have time for but oh boy..

sun for part of the day

Hope to get a few to relax. Did lots of cleaning, billing, creating and selling and correspondence. Still hurting, the rain has not helped physically and now emotionally.

Hateful words just can not be taken back. I know when someone is scared and worried the worst can come out but life is good for her. Not sure what the thought process was to get where she went. No need to be so mean spirited. Hate is a strong word. Putting down what I do is very sad. I have always been generous to her friends and to her. Listening is not a strong suit. Hopefully one day she will appreciate what she has had in us.

Now off to discover. Life is good.

take a deep breath

trying to overlook the disrespect.. or is it really that one does not care.. a good case of ennui. ...leaving people without a good sense of focus.. back to mine.. things to do.. for myself... and others who appreciate my efforts.

sunshine is coming

That means catching up outdoors .. hooray. .I look forward to it.. maybe even the pool. nice.

so is 22 the new 16

I do not think so, just a case of some lazy, for myself energy. Hope it converts and picks up soon, or this story will change dramatically. I am much too old and kind for this.

Love having the "kids" around, hate that they treat out newly renovated baths and rooms like gross dorms. This is our home and it has basic upkeep and care that comes along with it.

I have tremendous love for these souls but give me a break. Others like them are working everyday and organizing their lives. Get up and be counted.

Not sure why they are so antagonistic and not open to what we are saying. Everything is an argument or disagreement. They question everything we say or do.
Our other two were always respectful and learned. Sometimes I wonder if they will ever get it.

how hard is it??

I mean, it is amazing to me how some people can take care of themselves and do for others and then there are some who can't or won't do anything extra at all. No matter how much you do for them, they sit back and take. Why is that?

I am going back to my progressive ways. Happier, easier to just do what I need and take care and make plans. Sad, I hate being selfish but maybe I will have to look at it as loving myself first. Life is really too short.

I will get back o my wish "to do" list. Maybe then, people will either get it on their own or lose out. I mean, when I was 22.. sheesh. I was married and saving my money and cleaning up after myself for a while by then and helping others and checking in on my family and planning. Boy, wish I had had money given to me when I accomplished things. Ha!!

Then again, there was not the diversion of the internet and having to listen to all the stupid twits. Voyeurism at its worst, wasteful, mindless blogs about very little. Like this?