Spring 2016 and moving on

Sunday, March 20th, just returned from a great visit in NYC. Stayed with Rachel and Dustin. So very nice to see them and explore and go to Rachel's shows. Met Em and saw some old friends of Rachel's and mine. Good to be home after a NYC visit and the one before that to visit Dee in Naples. My leg is still working against me, trying to do rehab and PT but it's been 10 months now and still not great. It's better but holding me back. I am feeling a bit renewed and strengthened or at least walking the walk though after seeing kids and friends.
I fluctuate between waiting to sell and knowing I do not need to and wanting to stay but everyone tells me to do it. So, as I look ahead and that is my plan. A good friend said recently when I find the "new, great place" I will be excited to go forward with my new life's chapter. Looking at beach communities, they always make me happy. No matter where I go, it will be just me without Dave. I get that very clearly now. I will carry him with me, in my heart and on my heart, thank you tatoo. :)
I know how blessed to have had such an amazing love story in my history for 43 years. I will always miss and love him but I need to move on. I know that is what he wanted for me. Some days I do it with grace, some days I struggle. Everyday I pray for strength, patience and insight to do the right thing for me and for my family.
I was invited to Cincy for Easter with the kids and Nat and Mike, very kind of them. I had already promised to go to Reading. So I am off to Easter next weekend with Kate, Tom and crew along with Em *& Dan. After that I am back to continue on clearing out and planning ahead. I am lucky to have choices. God has a plan for me and I hope I can be patient.
On the 30th Dave will be gone one year. I have struggled with this and am not sure I want to commemorate the day of his passing. I would rather celebrate his birthday and all the joy he brought in to so many lives. Gathering with the guys this week before Easter. Many people still feeling his loss. Love and miss you Dave, my soul mate, my love and my life.